IVF in Kerala

Hopes and Dreams after IVF
We did IVF- ICSI and are waiting for the blood test results. Read here about the IVF
22-06-2011  2pm

The blood test is scheduled to be on 28-06-11. My classes will start on 02-07-11. I can probably take a week off, if it is needed, and ask my friend to pay my fees for me. I am anxious to get back, finish the course in flying colors. It is quite enjoyable, the experience of getting on the other side of the teaching platform again, to listen to those wonderful classes,and more than anything the friendships..Sari and Eva are filling a large part of my heart, I am enjoying each moment with them..going to canteen, doing the assignments, sharing the tensions, and talking endlessly..and I very much love my single room in the paying guest house, I like the owner of the house and it is too good to have Sari share the same accommodation. All in all the past year was like a dream, a pure joyful one at that..and in my mind I have absolutely no trace of doubt that the next year will be no different. I will return in July, come what may. It is good to be pregnant and studying, and when I finish the course, I don’t have to come back to the same old house shared by just the two of us..we will have a lovely little baby with us, to share everything we have, and to spread immeasurable joy in our lives..we will shift to my workplace so I won't have to travel anymore..may be my parents will come to stay with us for a while, and in the nights, we will all sit in the cool verandah and talk at length about everything..my parents’ lives, my life, our love story, our married life, our baby, and everything…My baby will make us all laugh contentedly with his/her giggles and sweet nothingness..oh God, please let it all happen..please let me be pregnant this time..please let me not see red stains on my undergarments this month too, and get that hopeless despair.Please let me see two lines on the self-check stick for pregnancy..and please let me get gold medal for my P.G..please God please..

On 28^th, the result of blood test should show betahCG above 100. Then I am positive. According to DrTC, there is no reason why it shouldn't be positive. He says this is the most ideal case of the month.there were eight embryos in all, two were discarded,three are frozen, and three were put back into my uterus.all embryos are healthy,I am quite healthy and capable of getting pregnant,in fact a lot like soil ready with all the nutrients and rain and everything, just waiting for a seed to fall on to it so it can blossom and reproduce. I am slightly unhappy that he transferred only three embryos. What is the chance of success? Anyway better three than two. Is there a chance that I’ll get twins? Likely..oohh..then it’ll be too good..one boy and one girl? Wow, that is only a dream,and I am even afraid to dream and hope, lest something might happen..

After the embryo transfer I am very hungry..could be that I am sitting idly at home watching movies,reading fiction,going online etc. and waiting for Ramesh to come from office so we can go out. A maid comes to cook and clean. Mily is here giving me company all day. I miss Karikkatta, our black kitten, who died recently. Mostly I lie down on the sofa and watch HBO or Star movies. Today is 22^nd, and there is ‘Hiss’ in Star plus. I had wanted to watch that movie for sometime..Mallika Sherawat turning into a snake or something. It s at 11pm, now it is only afternoon. I just had stomach full of rice, spicy sambar and very spicy pickle. There is a cramp in the stomach, a burning feeling. Must be the pickle. Stomach feels really full. Sort of like the feeling before ovulation. Ovulation time is medically manipulated, so this cramp doesn’t have anything to do with either ovulation or menstruation. This must be the pickle only..much like the burn from too much spice.

22-06-2011   11.30 pm

I feel like vomiting. I am online, searching the symptoms, and I find that I might be having something called OHSS (ovarian hyperstimulationsyndrome),caused by too much hormone within me.It has three stages-mild,moderate and severe.this must be the mild stage..it ll be ok. I was watching this ‘ Hiss’ movie, and it can make even normal stomachs to throw up with the slithering cobra coming out of the woman and stuff. So I switched off and went to sleep, constantly disturbed by nightmares and uneasiness in stomach. Once I vomited, then went back to sleep. Got up again, and here I am, looking for OHSS symptoms. I guess I should go back to sleep.

NEXT...I am terrified!